We are four weeks away from race day! And even though our little girl is the size of a honeydew melon, I feel like my old self before pregnancy. In fact, I sometimes have this misconception that I look the same as I did before getting pregnant. Pregnancy is all about how you feel. And I have never felt better.

It’s funny how much things have changed throughout the past 9 months. I spent the first trimester hiding myself, afraid that someone would figure out our secret. During those first 13 weeks, I had mixed emotions about being pregnant. While we were so excited, I didn’t get my hopes up and I didn’t allow myself to get attached to our baby until my doctor told me that our little girl was strong and healthy.  Two days after being told that our daughter was in fact a girl and that she was super healthy, I started bleeding. I ended up in the ER thinking that we were going to lose her. It was one of the hardest yet happiest days of our lives when we finally heard her heart beat on the ultrasound. From that day on, I never took this pregnancy for granted and I have done everything in my power to help her grow into a healthy, strong baby. I found it surprisingly easy to put my own needs aside in order for our baby to grow as perfectly as she possibly can.

The third trimester has been nothing short of amazing and wonderful. I have embraced the changes in my body much more so than I did the first two trimesters… so much, in fact, that I forget that I am pregnant sometimes, until I get a glimpse of myself in the mirror. For some reason, I envision myself as I was before getting pregnant.

Before…

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At 36 weeks:

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Believe it or not, I am sometimes surprised when I struggle to get up from a comfy couch or when I have trouble bending over. Perception is a powerful tool!

I have loved having the support from my friends and I love feeling like I can move again. I have really loved my walks with Luna. And I can truly say that these past ten weeks have been the happiest of my life. Feeling our baby girl move is one of the coolest things in the world, and I feel so happy and grateful.  I can tell that she is growing and growing.  Her head is in the downward position and I can feel her kicking me in the ribs more often than not.  I have been fortunate enough to have no swelling or bloating and I am still walking quite a bit. At our latest ultrasound (@35 weeks), we found out that our girl is already 5Lbs and 11oz. She is big and strong. And beautiful.

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I find myself constantly looking at her pictures on my i-phone in disbelief that she is really hanging out inside my belly. :)

The only thing that I would change during this last trimester is my emotions. I cry. I cry when something sad happens in a movie. I cry when Michael plays a song that reminds me of a sad time in my life. I cry when I think of anything sad or emotional. I have never been a crier or an emotional person in my life before. And it has been a hard concept for me to accept. But like everything else during the past 9 months, I am rolling with it.

4 weeks to go…